Now that the news it out, I thought I’d start a new series, called “the pregnancy diaries” here on my blog. Just a fun way to document this growing baby and exciting journey. Don’t worry, I’ll try not to get too crazy and let baby talk take over my blog. But we are so so excited and part of me can’t help it ;). And I know I’m well past the first trimester, but thought I would go ahead and share a few thoughts from it.
The first trimester has been quite the whirlwind. Scofield and I weren’t trying to get pregnant … but, turns out, when you aren’t consistent with birth control that’s what happens ;) … even if it is only a couple of times. So when I asked him to pick up a pregnancy test from the store, it was really “just to make sure because I know I’m not pregnant.” mmhmmm.
When that pink line showed up, I think I went into legitimate shock. I ran to Scofield, showed him the test and fell on the floor, as he kept saying, with a huge smile on his face, “are you serious? are you serious?” I cried – I think I was feeling so many things they just all came out in the form of tears. And in my state of shock kept sayings things like, “I’m never going to have alone time again.” Haha. I was thrilled, of course, but a little overwhelmed. Once some of the shock wore off, Scofield prayed for us and our tiny baby. I kept thinking about Psalm 139 “He knit me together in my mother’s womb…you watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.” It’s definitely a moment I will never forget, and I honestly laugh about it a little now. Below are some of the first thoughts that popped into my head:
“What am I going to wear?”
“What do babies wear?
“What do we do now?”
“Should I eat something?”
“Should we call the doctor?”
“I have no idea what I’m suppose to do.”
The day after we found out, I was at work and just felt “off.” I was dizzy and extremely fatigued. I assumed it was the pregnancy, and kept thinking wow these symptoms are no joke. As the day went on it got worse and worse and when I finally got home I took my temperature. My temp was up to 103, so I crawled into bed. Of course, never having experience pregnancy before and knowing nothing yet about what was or wasn’t dangerous, I panicked. Rule #1 – Limit your google searches when you are in a minor crisis. I started googling “fever in first trimester” and found all kinds of terrifying information. Scofield came home, and still not knowing what to do, we called my mom, who’s a nurse. It went something like: “Surprise! We’re pregnant! Now can you help us?” Exactly the way I’m sure every mother wants to be told she’s going to be a grandmother ;). Oh well.
I took some tylenol, and slept for about 15 hours straight. I woke up the next morning and my fever was down, so I thought I was in the clear. Then, I immediately contracted an awful sinus infection that wrecked havoc on my system for 2 weeks straight [ I had no idea sinus infections could be so miserable ]. Once the sinus infection finally started to clear up, morning sickness set in … and set in hard. Who knew that it was possible for even saltine crackers to make you nauseous!? And water… yes, water!
But all of the nausea in the world was worth it to hear our little baby’s heartbeat during an ultrasound at our first appointment. I can’t even describe the sense of relief and joy to hear from the doctor that the baby was healthy and growing. Maybe it’s a first mom thing, but ever since we found out, I’ve been terrified of the worst happening. Once again, God is on control – always trusting Him.
As tough as the first trimester was, I feel so incredibly grateful and blessed. The fact that I am able to carry a growing, healthy baby blows my mind. And the more I learn about pregnancy, the more I realize what a miracle it is. We can’t wait to meet this little one in November!