How Motherhood Taught Me I’m Loved

May 14, 2017

Filed Under : Motherhood

How Motherhood Has Taught Me To Love Myself | lovelolablog.com How Motherhood Has Taught Me To Love Myself | lovelolablog.com So, I’m changing it up a little bit this Mother’s Day. Instead of posting perfect pictures of my breakfast in bed prepared perfectly imperfect by my 18 month old and her dad, I’m sharing the real, raw, vulnerable side. The side that every one tries to sweep under the rug, or tuck away in those dark corners, and pretend it doesn’t exist. The side that will overtake your life if you let it, and how motherhood has taken my life back…

I’ve always been plagued by that little nagging voice. The voice that is sometimes so quietly chanting negative mantras at me. The voice that at other times is screaming at me and throws me in a panic. Growing up, it was called “perfectionism.” It’s what made me a straight A student and always kept my room clean. Now, as an adult, it’s more pinned as “anxiety, worry, fear.” “Will they like me? Will I be enough? Will I be accepted?” It responds back so confidently, “No, no, and no.”

Fighting back is something I’ve done better at different seasons in my life. The fighting seems to come when I’m down on my knees left with no other choice. Fight or die.

For so many years I’ve listened to this voice feed me lies that I accepted as truth. I’ve let it knock me down, strip me of all I have, and then take the little that I had left. I’ve listened to it tell me, “You can’t, you can’t, you can’t.”

In college I learned about these little neuro pathways, or something, that we have in our brain that build roadways, or something, of consistent thoughts. The more we replace those negative thoughts, the more the old pathways will become grown over and new, positive pathways will be paved. So fighting is the act of replacing the consistent negative thoughts with truth. Refusing to listen to the lying thoughts that come flooding my brain. Filling my mind with positivity. It’s when my Dad use to tell me as a child, “Would Jesus say that to you?” Or when Scofield tells me now, “We take every thought captive and teach it to obey Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5).” The mental fight isn’t the easy way out…it’s exhausting, the road less traveled, and just plain hard.

But it’s worth it. So very worth it. And until Piper was born I didn’t understand just how worth it it was.

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As I look at that bright smile, the beaming ray of light that she is, it crushes me to think that light could ever be snuffed out by lies and negativity. It would break my heart if she were to think the things of herself that I have thought of myself. As she’s learning to talk, she starting to repeat everything we say. I mean everything. What if the things she started to repeat were the negative things I say … “I’m not pretty enough, my teeth aren’t straight enough, my hair’s not thick enough, I wish I was different.” It would crush my soul.

I look at that little face and cheesy smile, and think about just how much she’s taught me about who I am. This child loves me. Like, LOVES me. She doesn’t care if my hair is greasy, what I ate that day, if I worked out, if there’s food in my teeth, if the house is a mess…basically if I’m less than perfect ;). We laugh together and play together; she begs me to hold her and demands we snuggle during episodes of Clifford…and it has nothing to do with how I look on the outside. But has everything to do with the person that I am … my spirit … my love … the comfort I provide for her, the care and love I give to her. She’s sees beyond the surface, and loves me, needs me, wants me. If my child can love me the way she does, it gives me just a teensy tiny glimpse into the love my Creator and Savior has for me. And understanding that love is the kind of stuff that transforms your soul. It’s the stuff that slays those negative voices. That changes you forever.

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“Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.” (Ephesians 6:17)

So Happy Mother’s Day my fellow Mama’s. Keep fighting. They’re worth it … You’re worth it.

photos by sophie brendle photography

Bohemian Chic Living Room Reveal with Markley Design

May 10, 2017

Filed Under : Interiors

Bohemian Chic Living Room Reveal with Markley Design | lovelolablog.comBohemian Chic Living Room Reveal with Markley Design | lovelolablog.comYou guys, it’s here! One Room Challenge reveal day!! I am so excited to share with you the space I curated with Markley Design. Hayden was exactly what I needed to get my butt into gear, and make this room happen. We’ve been living in a half finished room (more like 1/4 finished) for three years now, and it feels amazing to finally have it completed!!! I honestly feel like this room is an extension of me, and it makes me so happy to come home to it. My goals for this room were to create a space that was inviting and cozy, while also being bright and full of color, which I definitely feel like we were able to achieve!

Did I go overload with posting pictures? Maybe. Am I sorry? Not at all. Click ‘continue reading’ to see the full reveal, as well as all the products linked at the end!

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Home is Where the Pants Aren’t

May 8, 2017

Filed Under : Lifestyle - Motherhood

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I thought I would share a few snapshots from a just a regular ol’ morning at home. Mom with her coffee, Piper with her milk…and probably sans pants because who needs those anyway!? Not this 18 month old.

This girl …. she is giving us a run for our money lately. But it’s moments like these where she pulls all her cute strings that the tantrums from the day before seem to just fade away ;). Love our Piper girl, her cheesy smile, and her curly red locks. Love our simple, silly, everyday moments at home.

Living Room Progress: Minted Art

May 4, 2017

Filed Under : Interiors

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You guys. I am geeking out over how our living room is coming together. But man, oh man, has it been a process. I don’t know about you, but I have major design OCD. (Did I say major!?) I rethink things once, rethink them twice, then rethink them again. Which is exactly what I did when deciding on a piece of art to hang above the couch. The wall behind the couch in our living room flows straight into the kitchen, so it was important for me for everything to stay cohesive. I originally thought about doing a gallery wall here, but the wall is so big and just the thought of putting together a gallery wall stressed me out. (so much work, right???).

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I considered a neutral macrame piece, but in the end decided that we really needed the color from an art print. The only trick was that our rug has so much pattern and color, that we didn’t want the art to clash. Since our rug has shades of mauve, gray, and pink, what the room was really lacking was blue. Once we added the minty blue couch, I felt like I needed some deeper shades of blue to really anchor the room. But once again, we didn’t want the art to clash with the rug, and we didn’t want it to take too much attention away from our other bold statement pieces – the rug, our fiddle leaf fig, and our couch.

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I envisioned a peace that whispered a gentle hello when you walked in. A piece that filled the room with soothing background noise, but wasn’t so loud you couldn’t think. I searched and searched on Minted using their filter feature to browse through all of their blue, pink and abstract prints. I saved all of the prints that really spoke to me under “my favorites” in Minted and then looked through them with Hayden. We finally landed on this abstract and I couldn’t be more pleased. It is everything I dreamed of and more. It’s the perfect combination of shades of blue and pink, and complements the rug and couch perfectly (I think!). It is so gentle up there on the wall and is killing me softly (in the best way!).

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After the whole art shebang, I am officially obsessed with Minted and am still constantly adding art pieces to my favorites folder, as I dream of decorating more spaces in our home. Since there are so many pieces I love, I’ve linked some of my other favorites below!

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Next week is the final One Room Challenge reveal, so be sure to tune in first thing Thursday morning! Hayden and I absolutely cannot wait to share my living room with you. Good things coming, you guys!!

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